Musings

I have cleaned my upstairs and down, well, pretty well anyway! My closet needs tending to but if I am not mistaken, will be there tomorrow. I have plenty to do but just do not have the drive to do it. I know someone who has found out they have a terminal disease should not dwell on it and seriously, I try not to............ But when it comes to finding things that interest me they can be far and few between. The things that have meaning to me now are my children and I do still like to decorate but the drive has diminished. I wonder why as it is not any different now than from another person who knows not what their future holds. Yet I have images and diagnoses to remind me of what my future could hold, granted it it not all for sure and for when and yet again I may end up passing by a whole different plan.
I should go walk, but exercise was never my thing and lord knows now is not any more appealing. I dont want to lose hope - I am thinking it is the weather and when the sun starts shining and the warm weather beckons me to open my windows I will feel more at ease with making more of my time and being outside enjoying nature.