Monday, March 28, 2011
Kelsey
Kelsey is my middle child, the one who is so ignored at times and left to deal with their own ability to entertain. I love her so and am so proud of her - she has had some difficulties and it seems obstacles more than the other two to overcome. I wonder why and yet maybe it is to give her strength and committment and I hope she can take positive from all that has come her way instead of dwelling on negativity from being a victim. I worry she has no confidence in how truly special she is as a person and an individual and so she tries to find it in people who may not be the best influence in her life. I pray the Lord guides her to find her strength and wisdom within to truly understand how to go about unafraid to reach her goals and be confident to be the leader among others who will revel in her following to either go with her or stray from her path. I love you Kelsey.
Musings
I have cleaned my upstairs and down, well, pretty well anyway! My closet needs tending to but if I am not mistaken, will be there tomorrow. I have plenty to do but just do not have the drive to do it. I know someone who has found out they have a terminal disease should not dwell on it and seriously, I try not to............ But when it comes to finding things that interest me they can be far and few between. The things that have meaning to me now are my children and I do still like to decorate but the drive has diminished. I wonder why as it is not any different now than from another person who knows not what their future holds. Yet I have images and diagnoses to remind me of what my future could hold, granted it it not all for sure and for when and yet again I may end up passing by a whole different plan.
I should go walk, but exercise was never my thing and lord knows now is not any more appealing. I dont want to lose hope - I am thinking it is the weather and when the sun starts shining and the warm weather beckons me to open my windows I will feel more at ease with making more of my time and being outside enjoying nature.
I should go walk, but exercise was never my thing and lord knows now is not any more appealing. I dont want to lose hope - I am thinking it is the weather and when the sun starts shining and the warm weather beckons me to open my windows I will feel more at ease with making more of my time and being outside enjoying nature.
March endings
Already the 25th of March - time goes by so fast and I stop and think what have i done with it? I finally got down all my xmas decor but I think it was February which is ok. For my 57th b'day the girls surprised me with a party at the bowling alley w/all the family. What fun- hadn't bowled for years which of course showed in my score!
It was abit of a memorial wk-end as Kelsey ended up in the er and went and sat with her on my actual b'day. She had fallen down a flight of stairs onto her mouth chipping her 3 front teeth - Praise the Lord that is all she broke. We are still working on progressively repairing these.
Two wks later I get a call around 230am from Kegan who is in extreme pain. After off and on calls and calling 1st nurse for advice, Kelsey took her to the er. She ended up passing a kidney stone! Nothing scarier than your children in pain and in the hospital and thank you Lord once again for making all well. Kalie had a kidney stone as well at the age of 20 while living in Tx which was very hard to handle not being able to be there with her. WE have since found out the Grandma Seifried also had kidney stone surgery when she was younger and it can be hereditary. I know Marcia, my sister also had kidney stones and Bonnie as well! Not a pain I want to experience thank you.
It was abit of a memorial wk-end as Kelsey ended up in the er and went and sat with her on my actual b'day. She had fallen down a flight of stairs onto her mouth chipping her 3 front teeth - Praise the Lord that is all she broke. We are still working on progressively repairing these.
Two wks later I get a call around 230am from Kegan who is in extreme pain. After off and on calls and calling 1st nurse for advice, Kelsey took her to the er. She ended up passing a kidney stone! Nothing scarier than your children in pain and in the hospital and thank you Lord once again for making all well. Kalie had a kidney stone as well at the age of 20 while living in Tx which was very hard to handle not being able to be there with her. WE have since found out the Grandma Seifried also had kidney stone surgery when she was younger and it can be hereditary. I know Marcia, my sister also had kidney stones and Bonnie as well! Not a pain I want to experience thank you.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Reflections.................
Contentment,,,,,,,,,,,,,Happiness,,,,,,,,,Love,,,,,,,Compassion,
I can not list all the experiences I felt over the holidays being with my girls..........I will take each and every one of my hours given to me to enjoy to the fullest and nothing means more to me than my most treasured gifts given to me in this world, and that is my beautiful girls. It seems like yesterday when they were 3, 5, & 7 and I prayed to the good Lord to please help me to raise them by myself and keep them safe. If I could go back I would because every bit of anxiety, fear and struggle was so worth it and it would give me more time with my girls........ It all went too fast. My prayer now is to ask of more time.......................
I can not list all the experiences I felt over the holidays being with my girls..........I will take each and every one of my hours given to me to enjoy to the fullest and nothing means more to me than my most treasured gifts given to me in this world, and that is my beautiful girls. It seems like yesterday when they were 3, 5, & 7 and I prayed to the good Lord to please help me to raise them by myself and keep them safe. If I could go back I would because every bit of anxiety, fear and struggle was so worth it and it would give me more time with my girls........ It all went too fast. My prayer now is to ask of more time.......................
Wii``We
Kegan woke up and I told her of the visitor in the night and the unexplained gift and filled stockings by the fireplace!!!!!!!! We slowly crept into the room wondering what awaited..............questioning if she should wait for her two older sisters to awaken, should she run upstairs and yell at the top of her lungs as she used to in the younger days???????? The decisions,,,,,,,,,I mean they have gotten abit more possessive of their sleeping time and they are now bigger and MeANer!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK,,,,,she opened one gift and ITS A DANCE 2 WII GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, CAN U BELIEVEIT? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?? I agree to go with her upstairs to show her sisters to help to protect her if they attack on awakening. Well,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,they were kinda excited, let's just say, nothing to write home about...
Kegan and I came back down and she opened the rest of the present only to find a Wii!!! How exciting is this? We can figure out how to hook it up and play it tonite after opening our gift!!!!!!!!!!!
It was easy to do, we did it and how much fun!!!!! Santa definitely did a good job this christmas............. Kegan figured she played Wii for 7 hours straight on christmas eve. The tv room got to be a regular sweat box with the dance competition. "So U Can Dance" watch out!!!!!!!!!!
OK,,,,,she opened one gift and ITS A DANCE 2 WII GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, CAN U BELIEVEIT? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?? I agree to go with her upstairs to show her sisters to help to protect her if they attack on awakening. Well,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,they were kinda excited, let's just say, nothing to write home about...
Kegan and I came back down and she opened the rest of the present only to find a Wii!!! How exciting is this? We can figure out how to hook it up and play it tonite after opening our gift!!!!!!!!!!!
It was easy to do, we did it and how much fun!!!!! Santa definitely did a good job this christmas............. Kegan figured she played Wii for 7 hours straight on christmas eve. The tv room got to be a regular sweat box with the dance competition. "So U Can Dance" watch out!!!!!!!!!!
Our Christmas 2010
Our christmas this year was wonderful. Absent was the hidden guilt buried deep inside for not being able to afford gifts other than the persons name we drew. Absent was all the pressure and hectic shopping to get just what we THOUGHT we needed to get to make the holiday bright.
We made a spiral ham for sandwiches and too many appetizers to mention! For some reason the girls and I always fix a spread large enough for possibly imaginary significant others?!!?!? (who knows, but what the heck it was all delicious) ooooooooooooooh, wait I have to go backwards,..................
Christmas Eve morning Santa visited our house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We made a spiral ham for sandwiches and too many appetizers to mention! For some reason the girls and I always fix a spread large enough for possibly imaginary significant others?!!?!? (who knows, but what the heck it was all delicious) ooooooooooooooh, wait I have to go backwards,..................
Christmas Eve morning Santa visited our house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AnTiCipATion
They are predicting a winter storm coming tonite thru Tuesday w/a forecast of 2-4 inches of snow! YAHOO!!! I know it is crazy but it has been a wonderful winter so far compared w/our horrible one last yr w/the loss of power and the use of my car due to ice covered branches covering my whole yard and driveway! My opinion is we do live in Iowa and it has been cold and dreary so why not throw some more snowfall in there to mix it up abit!!!! My dear friends Paula and Steve are letting me use their snow blower this year - which I mite say is abit intimidating as it is kinda a big guy! I now feel like "Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wondering why in the hell I had never gone out and gotten one before? No one in Ia should be without especially with a 1000' driveway like mine!
The Holidays
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