Kelsey

Kelsey is my middle child, the one who is so ignored at times and left to deal with their own ability to entertain. I love her so and am so proud of her - she has had some difficulties and it seems obstacles more than the other two to overcome. I wonder why and yet maybe it is to give her strength and committment and I hope she can take positive from all that has come her way instead of dwelling on negativity from being a victim. I worry she has no confidence in how truly special she is as a person and an individual and so she tries to find it in people who may not be the best influence in her life. I pray the Lord guides her to find her strength and wisdom within to truly understand how to go about unafraid to reach her goals and be confident to be the leader among others who will revel in her following to either go with her or stray from her path. I love you Kelsey.

Musings

I have cleaned my upstairs and down, well, pretty well anyway! My closet needs tending to but if I am not mistaken, will be there tomorrow. I have plenty to do but just do not have the drive to do it. I know someone who has found out they have a terminal disease should not dwell on it and seriously, I try not to............ But when it comes to finding things that interest me they can be far and few between. The things that have meaning to me now are my children and I do still like to decorate but the drive has diminished. I wonder why as it is not any different now than from another person who knows not what their future holds. Yet I have images and diagnoses to remind me of what my future could hold, granted it it not all for sure and for when and yet again I may end up passing by a whole different plan.
I should go walk, but exercise was never my thing and lord knows now is not any more appealing. I dont want to lose hope - I am thinking it is the weather and when the sun starts shining and the warm weather beckons me to open my windows I will feel more at ease with making more of my time and being outside enjoying nature.

March endings

Already the 25th of March - time goes by so fast and I stop and think what have i done with it? I finally got down all my xmas decor but I think it was February which is ok. For my 57th b'day the girls surprised me with a party at the bowling alley w/all the family. What fun- hadn't bowled for years which of course showed in my score!
It was abit of a memorial wk-end as Kelsey ended up in the er and went and sat with her on my actual b'day. She had fallen down a flight of stairs onto her mouth chipping her 3 front teeth - Praise the Lord that is all she broke. We are still working on progressively repairing these.
Two wks later I get a call around 230am from Kegan who is in extreme pain. After off and on calls and calling 1st nurse for advice, Kelsey took her to the er. She ended up passing a kidney stone! Nothing scarier than your children in pain and in the hospital and thank you Lord once again for making all well. Kalie had a kidney stone as well at the age of 20 while living in Tx which was very hard to handle not being able to be there with her. WE have since found out the Grandma Seifried also had kidney stone surgery when she was younger and it can be hereditary. I know Marcia, my sister also had kidney stones and Bonnie as well! Not a pain I want to experience thank you.